Today as I walked my eldest to school he gripped my hand and said "Mummy I feel a bit funny" , "What do you mean sweetheart?" (panic rising that maybe he was about to be struck down with Corona Virus) . As we walked and talked I realised he wasn't feeling unwell, he was feeling anxious. His life was changing around him, me and his daddy were very stressed about money (both being self employed) , he couldn't see his grandparents or his cousins, his usual activities were cancelled, he knew school was ending, he was going to miss his friends and all anyone was talking about was this virus that he didn't understand.

It was then that I realised in this very adult world , I hadn't really taken into consideration how he would be feeling. As we rushed around trying to ensure we had enough bread and milk to last us a few days and contemplated the prospect of home schooling for the foreseeably, the realities of being self employed in this current climate, we'd kind of just neglected to explain things properly to him. And so outside Tesco's in Hertford this morning I just pulled him in for a massive hug. 

I told him it was ok to be anxious, we all were and it was ok to talk about his feelings. I told him that I knew things were all changing around him but that we needed to focus on the things that were staying the same. Like family, like love, like kindness.

On a personal note I always find a bit of music cheers me up no end and so out came the phone to play "Some things never change" from Frozen so if you saw a mother and son having a moment outside of Tescos at 8ish this morning that was why. I never quite realised how perfect the lyrics were for times of uncertainty

"The winds are restless
Could that be why I'm hearing this call?
Is something coming?
I'm not sure I want things to change at all
These days are precious
Can't let them slip away
I can't freeze this moment
But I can still go out and seize this day"

We needed some bread and milk and so headed into Tesco's and grabbed some , we then realised the queue was super long and we wouldn't be able to make it to school on time. I signed and said lets put them back, A kind lady stepped towards me and said "please go in front of me, you've only a few bits and I don't mind" " Cant have you being late for school now can we!?" she said to my son. "I don't mind either" said the people immediately behind her and I actually choked up as I thanked them. As we left Tesco's and resumed our walk to school I turned to him and said " When times are tough always look for the kind people" just then we bumped into one of his friends and he skipped happily up the hill.

And so in these uncertain times I encourage you to look for the kind people, talk to your children, don't make the mistake I did of prioritising my own feelings and if a good burst of Frozen 2 helps with that so be. I will leave you with the last chorus from Frozen 2 "Somethings never change" and a link to the youtube video (just in case you need it)

"Some things stay the same
Though the future remains unknown
May our good luck last
May our past be past
Time's moving fast, it's true
Some things never change
And I'm holding on tight to you "

Love from

Kayleigh & the boys

XxxX